esoterik's Xanga

Monday, November 09, 2009

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 10:29:35 GMT

reading in progress.

my friend recently came back from Taipei and he managed to help me buy the 2books (also by same author) which I requested for.

he (my friend don't enjoy reading books) said he was quite surprised at how famous this author is (can find his books at 7-11 too!) and then he asked me a question which I don't know how to answer him.

"how to you know about this author and begin to read his book?"

......

actually there are much more other things in your life that you don't have answers to why it is happening, why you are doing it, why must it be like that etc.

something develops without you knowing why and in some cases you don't even when did it start.

you know?

back to the point, I really have no answer but I welcome you to read the books I like and at the same time, I welcome you to my fantasies.

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 00:04:40 GMT

I did manage to 'sort of' finish this book 2weeks ago. this is not my usual kind of read but try something once in a while! anyway the only upz thing about this book is a conversation as extracted below:

"are you girls still virgin?" she asked.

"what a question to ask. of course we are, we only do anal." the girls replied.

fantastic stuff, I like.

lighter note, do you have anything against female smokers?* technically there should not be any differences between male and female smokers; if you don't like female smokers, you should dislike male smokers as well. yet somehow, I view female smokers in a more negative light than male smokers.

smoking is 'wrong' and discrimination against female smokers is wrong as well. of course I won't reject being a friend with a smoker but deep down in me this unexplained discrimination exists.

(to date, I have 1 x female smoker colleague and 0 x female smoker friends.)

*thoughts generated while looking at two beautiful young girls smoking at the outdoor seating at some coffee cafe.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 00:10:30 GMT

another morning. sometimes I wonder if I am the cause of my own depression, tiredness, emptiness etc. maybe I think too much, consider too much unrealised outcomes and that is why.

when you get older, life should get more simple.

I'm good at getting along with myself.

金赛的迷惑 if you know what's troubling him, do let me know!

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 23:28:33 GMT

sleepy, yawn. struggling to wake up, struggling to keep awake, struggling to stay productive. but I hope it's only a matter of time before the body gets used to it.

I'm bit slow here but I did manage to catch the Ris Low 'Shingz' interview yesterday. I'm left speechless and maybe you can talk to my hand about this. I switched to watching Mr Low Thia Kiang's Parliment debate posted almost a year ago.

I think Mr Low is a good representative of the average men walking on the streets.

'walau, CPF got so much money but now I got nothing to eat, no job but I can't use my own money in there!'

'economic reccovery? don't affect me. my pay 5years the same.'

'Mas Selemat like that also can escape?'

I believe these are question of the common people and he will post these on the Parliment. however I do believe a good representative does not equate to a good politician. A good politician makes decision that will benefit the country in the long run, benefit the important factors of the country. these decisions are made, usually from a financial perspective.

I would want some decisions to be made from non financial perspective. run Singapore not like a company; run it like a country.

I think he needs more friends in the Parliment to help him out.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 22:41:46 GMT

small change aimed to make big difference...in my life! for the past few days, I have tried to make it a point to sleep for 7hours so that I can wake up earlier and have some 'extra' hours to use. sleeping long hours is a luxury which I do not need; I just need to sleep the necessary hours and it will do.

I have the 'hours' now and it's only by doing some useful stuff, the hours then can become meaningful.

was talking about 'yum seng' toast with a group of friends few days ago. as much as I find it rather 'meaningless', I do understand the symbolical meaning behind it. if it's your wedding, everything can go your style. (yes, your style not my style) but too bad, it's yours and also the parent's wedding. certain things have to be done for the parents, out of respect for them.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 14:40:57 GMT

I always felt this would be a great idea and a friend casually proved me right over dinner today. the only difference is that I do not need so many balloons to lift up a house :)

leftists rox because they are creative.

on a casual note, I watched this movie with a rightist friend and the rightist friend fell dozed off for like 1/3 of the showtime. lol

anyway, seems like there are a couple of people who died recently while engaging in sports (ie, running and soccer) scary, I shall try not to run too late in the night or else if I collaspe and fall into the drain, no one would see me.

Monday, November 02, 2009

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 10:56:03 GMT

Quotes/Conversation that made me stop and think.

(1) I was at a soccer game that day when I asked the captain of one of the team.

me: you all play every week?

captain: ya, but we are not very good but we are very serious.

(2) I was waiting in the queue to cash deposit my money when there's a young couple (around 18yrs old I guess)behind me.

girl to boy: my friend told me she got Sentosa Cove the first time she ate Mac.

boy to girl: wow.

girl to boy: but she threw it away cos she dunno it's hard to get but guess what her friend also got Sentosa Cove!

me: ......

kids nowadays are stupid; or rather I met 2 stupid kids queuing behind me.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 10:13:22 GMT

I'm like a duck which can swim. I'm like a bird which can fly. I'm like a snail which can't move fast. I'm have nothing special but that's me.

34 days to marathon and I've sort of made up my mind.

anyway, today I ran the reverse direction of my usual running route and I surprisingly enjoyed my run better! make some slight variations to the mundane and routine stuff you do and the results might be surprising.

where's the green light?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 13:25:26 GMT

well, giving up is easy. the choice to give up is, often, not difficult. a thought is all that is needed to give up.

simple. isn't it? I thought so too.

however there are many other normal mortals (like you and I) who have the option/'rights'/'privilege' to give up but chose not to?

this afternoon I read about how an injured US Marine (his vehicle ran over some land mine, exploded, and the nerves in one of his legs got damaged, resulting in a dead leg) choose to continue running to raise funds for injured Marines.

maybe we cannot leave an impact on the world with the things we do but there's a good chance that we can have a positive influence on a person near us.

no matter what you do, don't give up so easily.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 10:59:05 GMT

mazel tov, it's Friday.

Free yourself from work temporarily

Return to where you want to be

Inject yourself with sunshine

Dance~

Add the little bit of something that's missing before today

Yell loud and wait for the echoes to return

mazel tov, tomorrow is Saturday.