reading in progress.

my friend recently came back from Taipei and he managed to help me buy the 2books (also by same author) which I requested for.

he (my friend don't enjoy reading books) said he was quite surprised at how famous this author is (can find his books at 7-11 too!) and then he asked me a question which I don't know how to answer him.

"how to you know about this author and begin to read his book?"

......

actually there are much more other things in your life that you don't have answers to why it is happening, why you are doing it, why must it be like that etc.

something develops  without you knowing why and in some cases you don't even when did it start.

you know?

back to the point, I really have no answer but I welcome you to read the books I like and at the same time, I welcome you to my fantasies.

  I did manage to 'sort of' finish this book 2weeks ago. this is not my usual kind of read but try something once in a while! anyway the only upz thing about this book is a conversation as extracted below:

  "are you girls still virgin?" she asked.

  "what a question to ask. of course we are, we only do anal." the girls replied.

  fantastic stuff, I like.

  lighter note, do you have anything against female smokers?* technically there should not be any differences between male and female smokers; if you don't like female smokers, you should dislike male smokers as well. yet somehow, I view female smokers in a more negative light than male smokers.

  smoking is 'wrong' and discrimination against female smokers is wrong as well. of course I won't reject being a friend with a smoker but deep down in me this unexplained discrimination exists.

  (to date, I have 1 x female smoker colleague and 0 x female smoker friends.)

  *thoughts generated while looking at two beautiful young girls smoking at the outdoor seating at some coffee cafe.

  another morning. sometimes I wonder if I am the cause of my own depression, tiredness, emptiness etc. maybe I think too much, consider too much unrealised outcomes and that is why.

  when you get older, life should get more simple.

  I'm good at getting along with myself.

  金赛的迷惑 if you know what's troubling him, do let me know!

  sleepy, yawn. struggling to wake up, struggling to keep awake, struggling to stay productive. but I hope it's only a matter of time before the body gets used to it.

  I'm bit slow here but I did manage to catch the Ris Low 'Shingz' interview yesterday. I'm left speechless and maybe you can talk to my hand about this. I switched to watching Mr Low Thia Kiang's Parliment debate posted almost a year ago.

  I think Mr Low is a good representative of the average men walking on the streets.

  'walau, CPF got so much money but now I got nothing to eat, no job but I can't use my own money in there!'

  'economic reccovery? don't affect me. my pay 5years the same.'

  'Mas Selemat like that also can escape?'

  I believe these are question of the common people and he will post these on the Parliment. however I do believe a good representative does not equate to a good politician. A good politician makes decision that will benefit the country in the long run, benefit the important factors of the country. these decisions are made, usually from a financial perspective.

  I would want some decisions to be made from non financial perspective. run Singapore not like a company; run it like a country.

  I think he needs more friends in the Parliment to help him out.

  small change aimed to make big difference...in my life! for the past few days, I have tried to make it a point to sleep for 7hours so that I can wake up earlier and have some 'extra' hours to use. sleeping long hours is a luxury which I do not need; I just need to sleep the necessary hours and it will do.

  I have the 'hours' now and it's only by doing some useful stuff, the hours then can become meaningful.

  was talking about 'yum seng' toast with a group of friends few days ago. as much as I find it rather 'meaningless', I do understand the symbolical meaning behind it. if it's your wedding, everything can go your style. (yes, your style not my style) but too bad, it's yours and also the parent's wedding. certain things have to be done for the parents, out of respect for them.